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| ya well so it is like 1030 just got home from work and i am dead beat... i honestly don't think anyone will ever read this since nexopia is the new xanga therefore i am behind the times like by a couple months since.... anyways i will stop there before i go on this random rant about the stupidest shit ever. haha im tired but not at all grumpy ya well i think it is for the fact that i get to spend the whole day wit the most awesome person in the world or that i am going snowboarding i really don't noe anyways... like i said im tired and im out
latr all who read this, so nobody! haha
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| well then seems to be that this herd as switched to nexopia well that is just nutz oh well ... by the way it is 3:05 in the morning why am i up this early u ask ... cause ... well i honestly don't have no idea... if u can tell me plz do
laterz all
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| well it is thursday ....
yup so i just withdrew from my economics 1101 class jeez that class was a piece of shit thank jebus! anyways got Dragon Boat tonight hell ya, good stress relief that sport is well just until my coach start yelling then it isn't that much fun anyways... wat a week indeed i just hope that this weekend everything can just start all over again where i find the light at the end of the tunnel meh wat is another week i guess only more pain, disappointment, and anxiety... always hopeing for the best... i guess or just teh best alternative to the best anyways gonna end of this lil blog thing haha don't think anyone reads these things but it is always good to get shit off ur mind oh well ....
outty!
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| so it is a saturday after noon and just contemplating wat to do, oh well i guess it is just another nite at home yet again. haha u noe when ur life is pretty shitty when ur mom is going out more then u, yup! well hmm i donno why i keep trying to patch things up i have done everything one can ask for... no? well i donno just hold on yet another week and indure the pain hopefully a lil bit longer. lets see well as very signifacant days come closer and closer with every sunset i guess it gets harder and hard to win yet again. Is this it i ask myself, no it can't be as my mind and heart go into this fight to prove who is rite i would love to believe my heart and have a positive view on things but then my mind says the opposite. oh well that is wat i get to think about again and again on this saturday only wishing that tomm i will be awaken by the voice that says i love u yet again so plz lets just go bak to the way we use to be... but in reality a boy can only wish!
signing off ...
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| some ppl say hard times are wat help u develop a distinct attidude that u will use to battle life in the future. for the past couple of months it seemed as if i lost my way, once i went to a party in north van it was ur regular drinking, and all that party. this time i lost myself i broke down im scared that i am changing back to that kid that i use to be the one that assumes, not trust worthy, just that kid that wanted to be kool in highskewl.
yesterday i got into a fight wit my mom, the one person that is willing to do anything for me at any cost my shoulder to lean on. and the list goes on about wat else has gone wrong in these past 2 months. i really hate these times of sorrow i only wish life will just be fine again where i can be happy, trustworthy and always wishing for more. but for now i can only wish for health and love, love not even, as the hard times ahead will bring a test in my love for another. i only wish that my life will be as it was 3 months ago that is all... a simple wish but we all noe life will not grant that wish until i learn something out of this experience and till that time the hurt i feel will only shadow the love i want to feel again.
to all the hopefulls that are looking for the same thing i can only wish that ur lives will be as good as it was before or even better. so cheers to the effort of finding a belonging in life yet again for life will bring twists and turns that we just have to learn how to deal wit, good luck to u and hopefully sometime soon that wish the simple wish of a happy life again will come to be, but in the meantime just ride this rollercoster called life....
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